As we are are getting older, it can't be denied that we got to be more responsible of ourselves. We can not always depend on our parents, that's for sure. Graduated from college then getting a job that I like and finally can be on my own. It was easy. I thought. But in reality it was not like that. It was kind of hard to get a job just like what I wanted. I was unemployed for months and after that I just accepted whatever job that was offered. And it was hell for me. I have posted about this on my previous post so I would not talk about this anymore.
What I wanted to talk about is about how I was fall in a depression and I really feel so alone. I tried to talk to somebody but I always felt like they would never understand me so I stop trying. Not even my parents, not even my friends, and not even my sibling (I only have a sibling and he's only 10, what could I expected from a ten-years-old kid). Even with the encouragement form my friends I feel like those words are so just hollow and fake. The word "fighting!!" does not even have meaning at all for me. I spent my time sleeping, and it was too much I know. I'm always sleeping away my problems. My parents thought I was either lazy or angry. Yeah, If I'm mad I always like not talking to anybody and just at my room. But really I just wanted anyone to understand that depression is real. It was not just lazy or angry but it was more than that.
To all of you that is struggling right now, I believe you can get through this. I myself is still learning how to cope this. It is not easy I know but the thought of a better tomorrow that's what makes me going.
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